The Truth About My Life

I started this blog a year ago when my life was on a fast track to a reality that I was outwardly living and inwardly tormented by. As far a work, I felt that I shouldn't have a public posting of my failures, confusion, distress and insecurities about whether or not I would make it as an entrepreneur. I now realize I don't care. I'm not in the market of fooling people into thinking that I know more than I do. I'm honest, and you know what owning a business is scary. In the past year I have had some HUGE accomplishments: A merchandising event for Jordache Enterprises and K-Mart Corporate buyers, monthly events for a Local Women's Networking Organization, numerous contract events and Collateral Creation for some of Chicago's Leading Law firms, two BEAUTIFUL Weddings at Navy Pier Crystal Gardens and a fun little Celebrity Stint including Jeremy Piven. As a single little lady I've been able to create something out of nothing. During some of my darkest moment's I've very quickly achieved successes in my career that I never dreamed would happen.

Yet most people in my life know this last year has not been all roses. For those few moments of success there have been hours of agony. In this past year a major relationship in my life fell apart. Though the sadness and confusion surrounding this breakdown is behind me there are remnants that will mold me forever. I have been called naive as I want to believe the best about the situation, yet the truth is the world is full of people who will give you experiences. Some may be wonderful while some are crippling and destructive. In the end it is how we handle them that will influence our lives as well as set an example for others.

At the fall of this false empire that had been built around me I realized that not only is starting a business hard but so is being an adult. Maybe everyone feels this way, but I still remember so vividly being 17 going to high school football games, or being 19 walking the hill to class and napping at 11:30am. The thought of mortgage payments, health insurance premiums and home security systems still seem like the reality of an adult that couldn't possibly be the youthful soul inside me.

Finally I realize it is. I have encountered my first real storm, and the weight of the war now wears on my face. Though the cuts are deep the wounds have healed. Business goes on. Life continues and happiness comes in the smiles of friends, satisfaction of clients and the compassionate love of family. As a business owner I'm not sure if the success will last, if I want to continue to put in 19hr days to make it work, or if the uncertainty will overwhelm me. But as an adult I know I will weather the greatest of storms as they come with courage and faith.

So here's to a rebirth. Of me, of this blog and to an understanding of truth. Truth is I don't know everything, and I'm not afraid to say it. I will make mistakes, life will throw unexpected curve balls and in the end I will be OK.

Now Warren, if you will just show me how to make all those darn monies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!